19 June

when you said you would call me back,
it sounded immediate, so
i held the phone in my hand for several minutes
i didn't want to miss it, of course,
when the vibrating began to occur
signifying your promise realized

maybe you didn't mean it like a promise
of course, promises you remember not to forget
but after those several minutes turned into hours,
i tried not to think the gap meant you didn't care
i tried to believe i didn't really care either
but i didn't call anyone else, and no one ever called me

there are times when i get bored
with the constancy of this expectation
the monotony of my aloneness
and when i wonder how useful i could be
if no one knows that i exist
because that small piece of metal
which contains possibility of communication
has vibrations which are few and far between